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As if I didn’t respect Albus Dumbledore enough as it is. Yeah, I know he is fictional, but I admire his character. Wisdom and grace w/ a hint of bad ass would be the epitome of Dumbledore.

While going through probably one of the most confusing and questionable times of my life, I find it amazing that the most minuscule hints of inspiration can be found in the most unpredictable places. Ex) Was watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire - my second favorite of the series so far - and the previous quote that I have posted just hit me straight in the heart. It was like Albus Dumbledore smacking me in the face with his wand, telling me to get my shit together.

And of course it is easier said than done. But the little hints of hope that have been crossing my path w/in this hard time for me have started to accumulate and I’m getting to that point, I can feel it. The point where the push I’ll need to move forward will hit me the hardest. Positioning me in the direction where I won’t be forced to take the easy way towards something I don’t care for, but doing what’s right and working hard towards the life I want.

To look at it in a metaphorical point of view, it’s like all these little quotes and hints of hope in whatever form they are coming at me are little nudges. And they are building up to the gigantic shove that will push me forward in the right direction.

Just taking it slow.

No need to rush.

Just some things on my mind I guess. Nothing really insightful or amazing. Just an update to myself, and whoever else reads my tumblr, which I presume is not very many.

I very recently went through what I would consider for myself a mid-life crisis. Aside from the fact that I’m far from being in my “mid-life.” Well anyway, I started questioning a lot of things about my life. I started to lose my grasp on things. I began to question whether I wanted to be in school, if college was my thing, if I was doing what I should be doing at this time and age in my life. And to be honest, I don’t think I am doing what I should/would like to be doing at this point, but c’mon now.. who really is doing what they want to be at the exact moment they choose. Not very many. The way I figured it was that a lot of things are out of our control and some things are necessary to get to other goals in life. Sure, I would love to have my ideal career right about now, living on my own with the love of my life, and just enjoying life and exploring the world, changing the world one small step at a time. But life sometimes works against what you want, to prepare you more intensely so that when that moment comes when you have the control, the choice, the ability to be doing what you want exactly when you want, you’ll be more than ready to take that opportunity head on. I feel like I am writing in circles, but it’s important to me to get my idea across thoroughly. So basically, what I’m saying is, is that everything can’t always be fun. And taking the time this passed weekend to just rejuvenate and clear my head has helped me re-realize that whatever comes up in my life, whatever I go through, I’m going in head strong. Without fail. I’m going to get through the tough stuff to get to the good stuff.

On a totally separate note, just a random thought that crossed my mind earlier today. Words are so powerful. When constructed specifically, they can build someone up, or completely destroy a person’s soul. They can push someone over the edge, or gently bring someone away from it. Words can inspire minds and provoke actions that can impact and change lives, for better or for worse. Without words, there would be nothing to understand, because there would be no way to describe. Words are among the most powerful of weapons, and among the most important tools to mankind. But so many people so easily overlook how precious and sacred a word is. So many people don’t understand the power of a word.