“That’s always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people want to be around someone because they are pretty. It’s like picking your breakfast cereals based on color instead of taste.”—John Green, Paper Towns
I think of the people I grew up around, the place where I say I am from and I’m just embarrassed. I see pictures of people I know of house parties and red cups and I can’t help but wonder where are you going with your life? I’ts not any of my business really, but in all seriousness, I am ashamed to say that I was born and raised in Roseville if it means being affiliated with such low life people. I’m not putting myself on the highest pedestal (but it doesn’t take much to be qualified as a better person than that), and I don’t mean to judge. But you put yourself in those kinds of situations you are 1) asking to be judged, 2) embarrassing to say that I once knew you, 3) progressively going no where on a quick downward spiral to failure.
And if you think I have to “really know you” in order to make that assumption, you are wrong. Because you are obviously blatantly stating to the world that, that is the case for you. So anyone with half a brain could make that assumption really.
I’m not saying that I have all aspects of my life together, but I’m proud of where I am in my life and where I know I’m going.
It’s kind of funny actually. Life gets in the way of what I want in life. Ironic I guess. But there is no better way to put it. It’s actually kind of crazy how that works, but so typical.
You know what really grinds my gears though? That everything is so capable in your mind, or more particularly, in your imagination. But in all reality, everything is far from capable. But actually more likely to fail than anything. It sucks to be so ambitious, but to have reality holding you back.
I guess in the end, all it really comes down to is what you make of what you’ve got. How cliche is that? But it’s true. As Teddy Roosevelt once said, “Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” And then from there, you get one thing done and move onto work toward greater things.
Regardless of life holding your life back. You work through life and by doing that, you get to experience it. Work through the tough, the bad, the rough, the sad, and you get to experience the happy, the good, the love, the joy, in any which form those may end up taking place. Whether it’s the end result or the lesson you learned from the situation or whatever else.
The point I’m trying to get at is that depending on how you look at it will determine how you get through it. I just have to remember that in the aspects of my life.
to be surrounded by people you just do not want to be around. What’s even worse is that it’s inescapable. Literally, they are everywhere. Everywhere I go, everywhere I look, everything I hear, these people are everywhere. In high school I used to be so tolerant of people, I used to be so patient and understanding of people’s immaturity, ignorance, and flat out stupidity. But I figure after so many years of trying to give people the benefit of the doubt, you get tired of the bull shit. I’m bitter at the world for it having so many imbeciles. Of course I have stumbled upon a few people who are amazing, and I consider that a blessing that God has blessed me and shown me faith that there are great people out there, just extremely hard to come across. I am lucky enough to have a good family at my foundation and a handful of good friends who have helped me to where I am in my life right now. But the amount of rankness in people today is so dominating in regards to those who are actually great people, it starts to take a toll on you. It gets exhausting to have to deal with them, the things they say and do. I’m praying that there are some decent people out there somewhere and that I will find them soon. *fingers crossed* But until then, keeping myself strong, and moving forward (leaving all the unnecessary hostility, immaturity, and burdens behind).