April 2010
Some People
are just so utterly annoying. How do you expect me to respect you when you are such a pathetic person? Who are you trying to impress? What are you trying to prove? That you are cool, that you have a life, and friends? Maybe the people at the same level of thinking see what you are trying to portray, but people of greater intellect can realize that in all your efforts to appear cool, to appear like...
Don't Try to Resist Me
I feel the need to write something. But my mind is blank. Maybe it’s because I stayed up all night to study for a midterm that I most likely just failed. Maybe it’s because there is just so much damn stuff to do and never enough time to do any of them well. Time is such a crazy concept. It’s like an infinite resource, but so extremely valuable because every second, nano second,...
“I’m tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a...”
– Madonna
Feeeel the burn.
There are obviously so many things that are wrong with me. And it’s just so hard to explain those things, especially when there is no one who is willing to understand. It’s not as simple as this or that. It runs much deeper than what most people would assume, and that’s alright. It just sucks when it feels like there is no one who is there for you, to relate to you, to make you feel better,...
Big Girls Don’t Cry by: Fergie
this song is...
Recentering
It has come to the point where it is time for me to recenter my life. To focus on myself. To figure out what I need to leave behind in my life. To figure out what is weighing me down and to dump it out, fast. I guess right now is as good of a time as any to do that.
Indulgences
Lately, school is nerve wracking. But a lot of things in general are nerve wracking in my life right now. I went to sleep around I would say 8 today, in hopes that I would just fall right asleep, wake up occasionally to take care of some business in the girl’s room and slip right back into unconsciousness. But that didn’t exactly work out considering that since I went to bed early, I...
“‘cause you’re so disarming
I’m caught up in the midst of you...”
– Mariah Carey, Heartbreaker
Twitch
My left eye has been twitching for over a week. It’s been driving me insane. When I looked up the top reasons as to why eyes twitch, this is what I got:
fatigue or lack of sleep
over consumption of caffeine
physical or emotional stress
anxiety or phobias
brain damage or other neurological disorders
associated with temper tantrums (especially in children)
eye stress associated with...
Conflict
I hate waking up in the morning, putting in the effort to go to class and what not, only to find that we are watching a movie. It’s actually only frustrating when it happens in the morning. I wouldn’t really care as much if it were any other time of day.
I generally would say I’m not the kind of person to embrace conflict. If it’s avoidable, I would like to avoid it....
“the sun don’t shine forever, but as long as it’s here, we might as...”
– P. Diddy ft. Ginuwine, Need a Girl (Part 2)
Skyway Avenue by: We The Kings
In Regards
to my last post, the quote from Up in the Air. I find that to be very true, I’m not the kind of person who is really very big on baggage. However, one thing Ryan Bingham does not understand, about me anyway, is that I would much rather live a shorter life with the people who truly love me and vice versa for as long as possible rather than to live a long life, alone.
“How much does your life weigh? Imagine for a second that you’re carrying a...”
– Ryan Bingham, Up in the Air
Sentense Me →
I like this site. Gives me some interesting incite to ponder upon.
Falling
Little things to try that can make a big impact on you:
- falling asleep to the sound of rain
- waking up in warm covers when everything around you is cool
- falling asleep/waking up in the arms of the one you love
- watching late night movies w/ your dad
- taking a bike ride during dusk in the fall
- doing homework with the one you love
- walk around IKEA and pretend that every display...
So Inconsiderate
Frustrations:
It seems like no one has manners these days. No one has common courtesy anymore. As the generations come and go, so do essential characteristics like respect, courtesy, thankfulness. I am trying to remain calm in the constant situations I am put in where there are no manners to be found within a hundred mile radius. But my patience is being tested more and more lately, and it is...
Sparks Fly
It’s almost scary how powerful music can be. How much of an impact it can have on your mood, your attitude, your life. I literally get that “tingly feeling” when I hear a good song or a good part in a song. A song that I can relate to or a song that can motivate me to do something. I have real respect for musicians and artists who can do that. Who can write lyrics that reach out...
